NOT TO WORRY EVERYONE I AM STILL ALIVE!
Right now I am very overwhelemed with all the papers, book reviews, tests, and quizzes that I have to finish and as I look ahead in my assignment book it doesn't seem to get any better! consequently I tend to spend all my time on these kinds of things (or watching csi with my family lol) and probably won't have much time to write. But I will try when I have the time. I haven't even seen my roomate in like three days! Crazy.
I really felt the grace of God last night as I just cried out to God because I DO NOT have the strength or ability to get this all done and I was encouraged by this verse:
1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxieties on Him because He cares for you.
So hopefully I'll be back on here sooner than later to ramble some more =)
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
I almost saw a squirrel die
It was a beautiful end of summer/fall day yesterday as I was walking across campus to catch the bus to my car. I had just finished a 30 question test in less than five minutes and was feeling pretty good about myself...well who wouldn't do well when the professor gives you all the answers. Hes not the brightest crayon in the pack although he thinks hes sunny yellow or fluorescent pink. Just to give you an example of his lack of wisdom, one of the questions on the test was multiple choice and asked what the seven steps to a needs assessment were. A legitimate question, BUT, when we were going over the answers for the test, BEFORE the test lol, he said to us "oh...well theres only one answer on here with seven choices so I won't even tell you what the other choices are." I just looked at him in disbelief.
Anyway back to the story.
So I was walkin along feeling good because I know I just got 100% on my test which will boost my grade and GPA, knowing I'm about to go for a run which will eventually put me in really shape, and just being very positive about the future. Being that fall is approaching and soon after so is winter there are squirrels EVERYWHERE collecting nuts as I happily walk along the sidewalk to the bus stop. As I was planning what to wear on my run since it was a tad chilly outside, I looked up to see a guy on a bike coming towards me. This is a common sight on Penn State campus although I have this theory that they're all drug dealers because they roll one pant leg up all the time...or they just want to be like Joe Pa ;) haha i make myself laugh.
Back to the story again
So this guy on a bike is coming towards me and at the same time a squirrel runs across the sidewalk in front of me and just as the biker is RIGHT next to me the squirrel turns around for some odd reason, maybe because they are demon possessed, and runs right under the tire of this guys bike. The guy starts yelling OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH and I look over and all I see is this tail flying through the air and spinning all around. My first thought was "O my gosh he just ran it over and the wheel flung it through the air. EW I HOPE I DON'T HAVE SQUIRREL BLOOD ON ME!!!" But then It jumped off of the guys body and seriously flew like 6 yards over into some bushes and ran away. hahahahaha like ten people stopped and started laughing hysterically and at this point we all realized that it had NOT gotten ran over but ran up the guys leg JUST in time thus saving his own life and escaping death to beg college students for food with those creepy little eyes one more day.
hahahahaha so funny.
AND this reminded me of when we were playing blurt and kaitlin was reading something about animals that fly and I said "SQUIRREL!" and she laughed really hard at me. Most people would think of a bird but no, i think of squirrels.
Ok enough squirrel talk for the day...and week.
Anyway back to the story.
So I was walkin along feeling good because I know I just got 100% on my test which will boost my grade and GPA, knowing I'm about to go for a run which will eventually put me in really shape, and just being very positive about the future. Being that fall is approaching and soon after so is winter there are squirrels EVERYWHERE collecting nuts as I happily walk along the sidewalk to the bus stop. As I was planning what to wear on my run since it was a tad chilly outside, I looked up to see a guy on a bike coming towards me. This is a common sight on Penn State campus although I have this theory that they're all drug dealers because they roll one pant leg up all the time...or they just want to be like Joe Pa ;) haha i make myself laugh.
Back to the story again
So this guy on a bike is coming towards me and at the same time a squirrel runs across the sidewalk in front of me and just as the biker is RIGHT next to me the squirrel turns around for some odd reason, maybe because they are demon possessed, and runs right under the tire of this guys bike. The guy starts yelling OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH and I look over and all I see is this tail flying through the air and spinning all around. My first thought was "O my gosh he just ran it over and the wheel flung it through the air. EW I HOPE I DON'T HAVE SQUIRREL BLOOD ON ME!!!" But then It jumped off of the guys body and seriously flew like 6 yards over into some bushes and ran away. hahahahaha like ten people stopped and started laughing hysterically and at this point we all realized that it had NOT gotten ran over but ran up the guys leg JUST in time thus saving his own life and escaping death to beg college students for food with those creepy little eyes one more day.
hahahahaha so funny.
AND this reminded me of when we were playing blurt and kaitlin was reading something about animals that fly and I said "SQUIRREL!" and she laughed really hard at me. Most people would think of a bird but no, i think of squirrels.
Ok enough squirrel talk for the day...and week.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Somewhere in the Middle
Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me
Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle
Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves
Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle
~Casting Crowns
Dont get comfortbable where you are, always let God lead you out of your comfort zone. You never can invite too many people to church, you never can witness to too many people, theres not such a thing as praying too much, and a wore out bible is a good thing! Remember when people think you're crazy thats when God knows your sane, and when sinners laugh and mock you, when they stand in anger with hurtful words, its conviction that drives their hostility. When you think you're too radical, too passionate, too crazy, don't worry you're still not far enough. We can never give God too much, never love Him too much, and never be too radical for Him. So where do you stand? Are you giving it all to Christ or are you somewhere in the middle?
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me
Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle
Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves
Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle
~Casting Crowns
Dont get comfortbable where you are, always let God lead you out of your comfort zone. You never can invite too many people to church, you never can witness to too many people, theres not such a thing as praying too much, and a wore out bible is a good thing! Remember when people think you're crazy thats when God knows your sane, and when sinners laugh and mock you, when they stand in anger with hurtful words, its conviction that drives their hostility. When you think you're too radical, too passionate, too crazy, don't worry you're still not far enough. We can never give God too much, never love Him too much, and never be too radical for Him. So where do you stand? Are you giving it all to Christ or are you somewhere in the middle?
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Short n' Sweet
I found myself completely distracted today from school, lectures, homework, conversations, and even EATING(which is rare) because of so many different things going on in my life right now. Theres so much to be done, so many people to pray for, things in my life that need to change, so many disfunctional people and situations, and I'm at a loss as to how to even attempt to fix or at least bandage them. These thoughts left me perplexed, confused, sad, upset, and angry to the point of loss of breath. My heart was beating so fast I thought it was gonna burst outta my chest and run off without me! Since I inherited certain traits from my mother, such as being able to read my feelings by the looks on my face lol, my wonderful roomate could see my distress and sent me this lovely text message:
"Think about how awesome God is."
And I did.
Its amazing how one little simple sentence can clear the mind, slow down the heart, open up my lungs, and give me a peace. So I encourage you today, whether it was a good day or a not so good day, just think about how awesome God is and praise Him for it. =)
that was longer than I thought it would be...lol i think I inherited that from my mother as well ;)
"Think about how awesome God is."
And I did.
Its amazing how one little simple sentence can clear the mind, slow down the heart, open up my lungs, and give me a peace. So I encourage you today, whether it was a good day or a not so good day, just think about how awesome God is and praise Him for it. =)
that was longer than I thought it would be...lol i think I inherited that from my mother as well ;)
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Let the Games Begin!
I just love the olympics. Watching your country's best athletes compete against the best athletes in the world and being able to celebrate with them as they hold up their medals(I am now a fan of Michael Phelps!) and to feel their pain when they drop a baton, fall off the beam, or trip over a hurdle. When I watch all these spectacular and very muscular athletes it kinda makes me feel...well...worthless lol BUT God uses the foolish things of this world to confound the wise so I'm set hehe! It always comforts me to know that I don't have to be something special or extraordinary to be used by God, I just have to be humble and obedient! Anyway, I was upset with the judging for the gymnastics because USA should have the team gold, and Nastia should have three gold medals not just one. Not only was Nastia better but its not fair to compete against 8 year olds ::angry face:: I GET TO GO SEE NASTIA AND SHAWN ON OCTOBER 24TH AND I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED ABOUT IT!!!! So you all will be hearing about it a lot =)
The one event that really amazes me is the decathalon. They have to do so many things and by the end you can tell they are all just dragging and after the last race they are gonna go home and sleep for about 4 days. Well thats what I feel like I'm about to embark on with this semester. I have six classes, five of them are on tuesdays and thursdays meaning I'm on campus from 9am to 8pm and then mondays, fridays, and saturdays I will be at work all day paying the bills. Now this wouldn't be so bad but allll of my classes are 400 level meaning very intensive,very in depth, and alot of papers. This will be my hardest semester at Penn State BUT it will be my last semester of classes because next semester I do my internship. But I'm asking for your prayers as I go through this educational decathalon because I think I've done a good job preparing but you never know when your body is gonna say NO MORE!
As I started to walk to my last class of the day yesterday I thought to myself, "This professor better be really funny looking or something because I'm about to fall asleep". Well, hes not funny looking but he is from New York City! He went to school in Long Island, I think hes from the Bronx, and he has that priceless NYC accent. That kept me awake =) Plus hes got a lot of energy and a good sense of humor so I WILL be able to stay awake until 7:45 when the class is over. What was most interesting about him is that he was a witness to 9/11. He literally saw the first plane hit the world trade center while he was walking to work and only worked a little ways down from the world trade center. One woman who worked for him got a call saying that her son was on one of the planes and what makes it even worse was that her other son worked at the world trade center and both of them died. My professor personally knew 16 people that died on 9/11 and he witnessed people jumping out of the windows. He said to this day he remembers that sound of the bodies hitting the ground and its something you can't get out of your head. The class was very silent while he was telling us about his experiences. He also talked about a train operator who heard about the planes hitting the world trade center and he immediately stopped the trains going underneath them and he saved about 25,000 people that day. I'm sure there are a lot of other heros that we don't hear about too.
While I was at work the other day one of my first tables I got never sat down. Meaning, they pretended to go to the bathroom and then left without telling anyone or paying or even eating anything. They probably didn't like the price of the bill and just decided to split but whatever the case I was confused. I thought to myself "I wonder if I missed the rapture." lol I was only joking around with myself but it really got me thinking. What if a plane flew into the nuclear reactor at Penn State, what if the Lord returned TODAY, what if a car hit me out of no where. I think sometimes we easily forget that we shouldn't be living for this life, but living with eternal mindsets. Its easy to start thinking about the future, and who you might marry, where you might live, how many kids you'll have, where your kids will go to college, how old you will live to be, if you'll have to eat prunes when you're 86 (lol), but we need to live for today. This could be your last day on earth, you have to expect the unexpected and live for God with all that you have TODAY! You may not get a second chance tomorrow...
The one event that really amazes me is the decathalon. They have to do so many things and by the end you can tell they are all just dragging and after the last race they are gonna go home and sleep for about 4 days. Well thats what I feel like I'm about to embark on with this semester. I have six classes, five of them are on tuesdays and thursdays meaning I'm on campus from 9am to 8pm and then mondays, fridays, and saturdays I will be at work all day paying the bills. Now this wouldn't be so bad but allll of my classes are 400 level meaning very intensive,very in depth, and alot of papers. This will be my hardest semester at Penn State BUT it will be my last semester of classes because next semester I do my internship. But I'm asking for your prayers as I go through this educational decathalon because I think I've done a good job preparing but you never know when your body is gonna say NO MORE!
As I started to walk to my last class of the day yesterday I thought to myself, "This professor better be really funny looking or something because I'm about to fall asleep". Well, hes not funny looking but he is from New York City! He went to school in Long Island, I think hes from the Bronx, and he has that priceless NYC accent. That kept me awake =) Plus hes got a lot of energy and a good sense of humor so I WILL be able to stay awake until 7:45 when the class is over. What was most interesting about him is that he was a witness to 9/11. He literally saw the first plane hit the world trade center while he was walking to work and only worked a little ways down from the world trade center. One woman who worked for him got a call saying that her son was on one of the planes and what makes it even worse was that her other son worked at the world trade center and both of them died. My professor personally knew 16 people that died on 9/11 and he witnessed people jumping out of the windows. He said to this day he remembers that sound of the bodies hitting the ground and its something you can't get out of your head. The class was very silent while he was telling us about his experiences. He also talked about a train operator who heard about the planes hitting the world trade center and he immediately stopped the trains going underneath them and he saved about 25,000 people that day. I'm sure there are a lot of other heros that we don't hear about too.
While I was at work the other day one of my first tables I got never sat down. Meaning, they pretended to go to the bathroom and then left without telling anyone or paying or even eating anything. They probably didn't like the price of the bill and just decided to split but whatever the case I was confused. I thought to myself "I wonder if I missed the rapture." lol I was only joking around with myself but it really got me thinking. What if a plane flew into the nuclear reactor at Penn State, what if the Lord returned TODAY, what if a car hit me out of no where. I think sometimes we easily forget that we shouldn't be living for this life, but living with eternal mindsets. Its easy to start thinking about the future, and who you might marry, where you might live, how many kids you'll have, where your kids will go to college, how old you will live to be, if you'll have to eat prunes when you're 86 (lol), but we need to live for today. This could be your last day on earth, you have to expect the unexpected and live for God with all that you have TODAY! You may not get a second chance tomorrow...
Friday, August 8, 2008
Ten Days of Freedom
In less than a week my days of reading of dysfunctional families and how to write a grant proposal accompanied by weekly presentations, papers, and boring lectures will be OVER! Oh happy day!!!! While day dreaming in my english class I came up with a few things I'm going to do with my ten days of freedom before the fall semester starts. Although they aren't very adventurous or overly exciting, here they are:
-Read "Hungry for More of Jesus" in its entirety By the wonderful David Wilkerson
-Get in the habit of reading Andrew Murray on Prayer every morning =)
-Write these great blogs about what God is teaching me through life and His Word
-Eat pierogies with a whole bottle of ketchup,crab ragoons as my appetizer, and my marshmallow cinnimon rolls for dessert!
-Admire my beautiful fake nails that were applied by a nice asian boy who has a degree in engineering from Penn State and is attending grad school...yet working at B&B nails lol
-Convince my roomate to dress up with me and go out to dinner! (hint hint)
-Spend time with Brian =)
-Take my dog on a run through the park
-Use my magical powers to change my dirty smelly dog into a apple scented black and WHITE dog
-Teach my doggie how to roll over
-FINALLY get to hang out with Zeph when he asks lol
-Have a movie night with Kendra including "A little Princess" (makes me cry!), Balto (we both have huskies lol), and happy feet (love the little songs they sing lol)
-go hiking!!!!! Theres something about a hill that makes me want to walk faster even though in reality i'm walking slower...its like the hill is challenging me and I MUST NOT STOP lol I could just hike for hours and hours
Ok so I think theres enough here to fill up ten days and most of my time will probably be spent working but a woman can dream can't she? Hopefully I get a few done especially the first 2! I hope you all are doing well, letting God work in you, and I'm excited to meet with you for the first time in our new church on Sunday! yay!
Au Revoir
-Read "Hungry for More of Jesus" in its entirety By the wonderful David Wilkerson
-Get in the habit of reading Andrew Murray on Prayer every morning =)
-Write these great blogs about what God is teaching me through life and His Word
-Eat pierogies with a whole bottle of ketchup,crab ragoons as my appetizer, and my marshmallow cinnimon rolls for dessert!
-Admire my beautiful fake nails that were applied by a nice asian boy who has a degree in engineering from Penn State and is attending grad school...yet working at B&B nails lol
-Convince my roomate to dress up with me and go out to dinner! (hint hint)
-Spend time with Brian =)
-Take my dog on a run through the park
-Use my magical powers to change my dirty smelly dog into a apple scented black and WHITE dog
-Teach my doggie how to roll over
-FINALLY get to hang out with Zeph when he asks lol
-Have a movie night with Kendra including "A little Princess" (makes me cry!), Balto (we both have huskies lol), and happy feet (love the little songs they sing lol)
-go hiking!!!!! Theres something about a hill that makes me want to walk faster even though in reality i'm walking slower...its like the hill is challenging me and I MUST NOT STOP lol I could just hike for hours and hours
Ok so I think theres enough here to fill up ten days and most of my time will probably be spent working but a woman can dream can't she? Hopefully I get a few done especially the first 2! I hope you all are doing well, letting God work in you, and I'm excited to meet with you for the first time in our new church on Sunday! yay!
Au Revoir
Friday, August 1, 2008
867-530niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine
Acts 2:21 - Who so ever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved.
Late nights, long weekends, and too many papers to write for class often cause me to revert to my very emotional side. Mole hills begin to look like mountains and my mustard seed of faith seems to disapper into thin air leaving me stranded on a hidden island surrounded by ravenous sharks and heavy fog. But you know what I love about God? He permeates every inch of every hidden island, He is the best shark slayer you'll ever find, and at the snap of His fingers all the fog disappears and when it does you see a large ship there waiting to take you home.
I had this bad habit of calling my closest friends, venting to people at work, or just wallowing in my problems instead of calling on the name of the Lord. My cell phone was the first one to hear about my stress and my confusion and not the ears of the only one who can bring me comfort and wisdom. Should I be surprised that when God is the first one I turn to, I never leave the conversation discouraged? I never leave that time left in confusion and filled with anxiety? Shouldn't I really understand this concept already?
I was convicted by my own word as I shared a message with the campus group. I have nothing to complain about, and do so is a bad witness (Phil 2:14-15). Philippians also tells me to be anxious for nothing but just PRAY. I remember learning this lesson as a freshman in college and realizing the freedom and joy that it brought, but I'm ashamed that I somehow lost this tendency to call on the Lord right away.
Thank God for this Holyspirit who convicts, reminds, and empowers to change! I find these days are a lot easier to get through and even though sometimes I feel overwhelmed and out of place, when I call on the Lord, he is faithful to hear and faithful to save me. And thank God after I seek Him, I have godly counsel and wise friends and family =)
Late nights, long weekends, and too many papers to write for class often cause me to revert to my very emotional side. Mole hills begin to look like mountains and my mustard seed of faith seems to disapper into thin air leaving me stranded on a hidden island surrounded by ravenous sharks and heavy fog. But you know what I love about God? He permeates every inch of every hidden island, He is the best shark slayer you'll ever find, and at the snap of His fingers all the fog disappears and when it does you see a large ship there waiting to take you home.
I had this bad habit of calling my closest friends, venting to people at work, or just wallowing in my problems instead of calling on the name of the Lord. My cell phone was the first one to hear about my stress and my confusion and not the ears of the only one who can bring me comfort and wisdom. Should I be surprised that when God is the first one I turn to, I never leave the conversation discouraged? I never leave that time left in confusion and filled with anxiety? Shouldn't I really understand this concept already?
I was convicted by my own word as I shared a message with the campus group. I have nothing to complain about, and do so is a bad witness (Phil 2:14-15). Philippians also tells me to be anxious for nothing but just PRAY. I remember learning this lesson as a freshman in college and realizing the freedom and joy that it brought, but I'm ashamed that I somehow lost this tendency to call on the Lord right away.
Thank God for this Holyspirit who convicts, reminds, and empowers to change! I find these days are a lot easier to get through and even though sometimes I feel overwhelmed and out of place, when I call on the Lord, he is faithful to hear and faithful to save me. And thank God after I seek Him, I have godly counsel and wise friends and family =)
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